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Why I Started My Blog: LifeAfterPTSD.com

Okay all, I finally started my daily blog in recognition of National PTSD month.

Some of my close friends and family are aware that I am living with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) steaming from Military Sexual Trauma (MST) & Command Rape during my short tour in the US Navy. What you guys don’t see is the daily struggle to move past the issues that still try to haunt me.

I have made a choice to live an AWESOME life with God’s leading and to not allow my to past dictate my future.

the daily struggle to move past the issues that still try to haunt me

Why Should You Read My Blog

I hope you or someone you know are able to benefit from my transparency. This is not easy, as I am a very private person…but I believe it will help someone.

So Whats The Story…Why Do I Have PTSD?

YC Lawson PTSD faceI was assaulted on my 19th birthday in March of 2000 and by winter of that same year a medical review board found me “Unfit For Duty” , forced me out of the military and denied me military compensation for the evil that occurred to me.

I was so ashamed of what I deemed as a drastic failure I stayed in California living as a homeless veteran for one year until the Veterans Affairs (VA) reviewed my case and compensated me for the assault and depression steaming from my short tour in the military.

I was awarded VA compensation on September 1, 2001, 10 days before the terrorist attack on the United States ~ 9 – 11.

The picture above is of me during the end of basic training in the US Navy in Great Lakes Illinois (August 1999), only seven months before I was stationed at my main duty station where I was assaulted and diagnosed with PTSD & depression.

My Life Now

Through it all, I consider myself to be a fortunate survivor.  I am not bitter but better from life circumstances.  I tell my self to do my best to forgive those that spitefuly did evil against me, but sometimes its hard…even as a Christian.  I try to live my best life each and every day.  I try to focus on the positives and live in the reality of my future and present life and not allow my past to have precedence over me. I still have a ways to go in my healing process.  I was told that it would be hard to completely heal from PTSD but I am trying my best to get past what happened to me.

I have made a choice to live an AWESOME life with God’s leading!

The picture below is of myself, YC Lawson, during the winter of 2009.

I am writing this blog now in the summer of 2015. It has been 15 years since the assault and I still have nightmare and horrific day dreams about the events that took place in my life. However, I have made a choice to move forward in life and believe God for my complete and total healing of the military assault.Yolanda-Lawson-pic

I pray that those of you who live with PTSD or if you have a loved one who has PTSD, to allow God to be your peace and your sanctuary.  There is no way I would have made it through the years if it had not been for God on my side.